BUT, one more thing had to occur. I needed to surrender and relinquish my rights. One big right for me centered on wanting and looking for a vehicle to replace my old one. I was constantly thinking, “I must have a new car; I need to have this car working, etc.”
I do not remember the day, but it was morning I walked out and got into my Malibu. Before driving off, I just prayed and came to a place where I said, “Whatever you want to do Lord I am okay with it. I will keep it (referring to the Malibu).” I then drove off, but in my heart I knew that the matter was settled. My heart had come to a place that said, “God you can do with me and my life whatever you want to do. I entrust my desires and outcomes of those desires to you and you alone.” I finally recognized the futility of walking after the flesh – my inability to meet my needs, my way, using my resources– and I believed in the Sovereign Goodness of God. I had finally released my rights, and the result was true freedom and complete rest in Jesus–no matter the outcome. The burden had been lifted!
What I had not shared earlier was my prayer for a new vehicle. To top it all off, the Lord over-answered my prayers by providing a really nice vehicle and he got rid of the Malibu for me, which I even got some money for. What a GREAT GOD!!!
Nate S.—York, PA